Month: July 2017

My lost grit

Mia3 Comments

grit road and mountainsI can honestly say, I have no grit. I give up as soon as things feel impossible. That’s the reason why I haven’t had a successful life. There have been times I had that grit but most of the time it’s lost. I quit my educations twice because I felt it was too hard. One was the business school but that doesn’t actually count since one of the reasons why I quit was because the atmosphere in class was awful. But the second education was photography. I was only there about 2 months because it wasn’t what I expected. I just gave up too easily. That’s something I regret but I was too influenced by the teacher who was too old-fashioned to even consider there are other ways to photograph. If only digital photography would be a thing at the time.

The time I did have the grit was when I studied graphic design. It was a two-year education. I had some motivation problems and I almost thought of quitting. But I thought to myself to take a grip so I hang on there. I didn’t want to have that 3rd school quitting thing on my record. After that, I’ve decided I wouldn’t quit any school no matter how hard it would become. It really has held this far. For a while, I did lose that grit when I studied web design. There was a difficult moment when we learned coding. But in the end, it was worth going through that stage. I did not give up and now I have a qualification in web design. Now I can officially say what I’ll do if someone asks. I’m a web designer.

I really need that grit back because it looks like I won’t get a job in web design. The other option is freelancing but that takes a lot of courage and grit. There is a change to be part-time and that’s called light entrepreneurship. It’s a good way to practise how to work for yourself. But still, you need to find clients on your own. That is the most difficult part and of course how much your client has to pay for your work. Planning is not really my strongest point and I usually end up empty handed. There’s a lot of pressure to be different from the others. There’s so much at stake and if you have no grit, it will be even harder. I don’t have that business mind and marketing myself is a lot of work. It already feels like I shouldn’t even try because of the workload you need to do. On the other hand, there is more freedom to work for yourself. You work on your own but yet you have that client you work for. The downside is that if you don’t work, you don’t get paid. I don’t want to lose my spare time either. I wish I had that grit like my father have. If grit runs in the family, then it must have skipped a generation.

Life is never easy. If it was, I would have that grit. I would have a lot if life was easy. You play with the cards you’re given. I have some grit in me and that’s getting over my problems. Getting through life is the main thing and not how successful you can become. Enjoying life in small doses is good enough for me and that’s a grit everybody should have.

 

Tallenna

Tallenna

Your chatter doesn’t matter

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One of the reasons why I dislike public transport in long distances is the chatter other people make. When I travelled to school, I had to take the bus. I had my tablet with me so I could listen to music but once I forgot it at home. I had to listen to other people’s conversations. I was bored out of my mind by hearing their constant jangle. Why do people have the urge to keep talking? If you got nothing interesting to say than don’t say anything at all. Even worse are those people who talk on their mobiles. The whole trip you have to listen to their nonsense. It should be illegal to talk on the mobiles when other people are around. In a bus, you can’t get away from these chatterboxes. I’ve got sensitive ears and even the slightest noise disturbs me. You can’t really say to these talking people to stop talking because then they get upset. People should really respect other people but these days it’s not obvious for some.

Being social seems to mean, talking a lot. For me, that’s not being social. It only means you love your voice so much, you have to keep talking. You can still be social if you don’t talk much. I’ve been told I’m not social enough. What does that mean anyway? I don’t waste time talking whatever comes to mind. I only say something if the subject interests me. I’m not deaf or mute. I observe and follow conversations. I don’t drift away if someone is talking. Especially extroverted people think if you don’t say anything, then you’re not social. Talkative people should try observing their surroundings. It’s OK to be silent for a while. You don’t have to be like a headless hen who can’t stand still for a moment. Too much noise is stressful.

Some people talk only because of talking so they talk a lot of rubbish. No one seems to have decent conversations where you actually have something to say. Then there are people who talk about things they don’t know about. They think they know so they try to convince you that they are right. But that only makes them look foolish. You see that a lot online. They can even go as far as insulting a person. People like that have no respect for different opinions so they argue. There’s no right or wrong, only opinions. When you write things online only because you want to make a mark, then why waste time in the first place. You should think before writing anything. That goes the same with talking. If everyone could think before speaking, then a lot of nonsense would be avoided.

Tallenna