Month: August 2017

Life is a carousel

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carousel and blue sky

I never liked roller coasters. I went once in a small one and I hated it. I kept my eyes closed the whole time. It’s the speed that I don’t like. I’m a carousel person. I don’t want any drama and I don’t like conflict. I always try to be careful. I never broke a bone in my life. I’ve had fractures but never broken any. I slipped on ice once where I fractured my left hand. That’s the only time I’ve needed a plaster. I had to wear it for a month and it was hell. I couldn’t even brush my hair and not to forget when taking a shower. Since then I promised myself I would never hurt myself like that again. Every time I slip on something, I get cold chills but luckily nothing has been broken. I’ve hurt all of my limbs and sometimes it feels like I’m invalid. There are things I can’t do anymore that I could when I was younger. For example, I can’t crouch down or sit cross legged. Especially the latter. I sat like that in 1994 and I fractured my right knee so I had to go through an arthroscopic surgery. I had to walk with crutches for a month and then had to go to rehabilitation. There was so much fuss to go through that situation. Clothing yourself, brushing your hair and to move from one place to another. When I see athletes hurting their knees, I feel their pain. I can’t stand pain so I try to avoid it as much as I can. Last time I hurt myself badly was about 4 years ago when I slipped on dirt and my left leg got bent backwards. My leg hurt like hell but nothing was broken. My ankle doesn’t work properly though. I never went to the doctor to get it checked. I haven’t dared to put my skiing boots on so I haven’t slalom skid for years because of that.

I always think before speaking which had caused problems. I just think too much and then the situation is over. I could have done a lot of things if I hadn’t been so careful but there’s nothing wrong with that. I don’t regret anything though. Things that have happened in my life has been out of my control. You can’t change people’s attitude against you. Seeing what other people have gone through in their relationships, I’m glad I haven’t had any of those problems. Some things I wish I could have experienced but that’s personal stuff so I won’t go into that. I’ve always done things what I feel at that moment. I’m not looking for a special adventure. Life itself is one but slower. I don’t know why you need to experience exciting things to feel you lived a life. You can live a quiet life and still be satisfied. I guess some feel more alive to “brag” about how great their life is. I feel alive when I listen to my favourite songs or favourite movies. I’m a homebody and when I’m alone I’m more relaxed.

I’ve always done things what I feel at that moment. I’m not looking for a special adventure. Life itself is one but slower. I don’t know why you need to experience exciting things to feel you lived a life. You can live a quiet life and still be satisfied. I guess some feel more alive to “brag” about how great their life is. I feel alive when I listen to my favourite songs or favourite movies. I’m a homebody and when I’m alone I’m more relaxed. I don’t need to go out to parties or drink myself senseless. That has never been me and never will. Sometimes it is nice to get out of you daily routines. Some years ago I never thought I would have the courage to see a live concert and this Thursday I’ll finally take that step. At the Robbie Williams concert, there will be at least 30 000 people so I hope it won’t become too overwhelming. I don’t suffer from anxiety so I’ll be just fine. It will be a roller coaster but it will feel like a giant carousel.

Tallenna

10 years anniversary

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Even if this blog has existed since 2013. My time on WordPress is 10 years. The same as in Facebook. It’s such a long time, it always feels less than that. Blogging is an amble and it doesn’t succeed over night. I don’t know how many times I’ve thought of deleting my blog. It has been a bumpy ride. My first blog was called ‘Not one of the gals’ It was supposed to be about F1 but like my ideas mostly end up, it didn’t go very well. I also didn’t have the motivation to continue with it. At the time I was still looking for my niche and blogging, in general, was new to me. I’ve learned a lot since I started and that’s the main thing. It’s part of learning new things.

Even these days I have thoughts about not continuing posting on my blog. But why should I stop if I really like writing in it? Like I’ve written before, this is like therapy. I can’t please everybody about the subject I write about. I’ve learned to appreciate what I get and what I have. This blog will never be in any special category and it won’t become a blog that gets 1000+ followers. I like small groups anyway. People that do have a lot of followers, usually don’t get personal with you. They might not even read your blog. No one has that much time to read every follower’s blog they follow. I don’t really know why some have the policy, if you follow me, I follow you. Blogging is not about how many thousands of followers you have, it’s about the quality you write. Especially young people think they get respect by having a lot of followers. It’s like going to the store and buy the cheapest item you can find. If you sell yourself cheap, you get cheap in return.

I’ve never really had a goal about this blog. All I wanted was to write my thoughts down and share them with others. I didn’t want to have a blog that is like any other. There’s a lot of fashion, food or lifestyle blogs but I wanted to be different. It has taken a few years to get where this blog has gone. When I started, I did get disappointed I didn’t get enough of traffic and stats were important. Now I’m glad to get at least something. Some people get their blogs out there faster than others. But like in real life, you shouldn’t compare yourself to others. It’s easy to lose motivation if you think no one is reading your blog. But there’s always someone. That’s what I’ve learned from blogging. I’m not good at giving advice but I tell you this.

If you’re new to blogging, don’t give up. Good things come for those who wait. You will get your blog out there one day. Just keep writing and learn new things. If I had given up blogging 10 years ago, I wouldn’t be here writing this. I’ve got a lot of encouragement from other bloggers and that gives me the motivation to continue blogging. Thank you for your time and thank you for being you. Let’s get another 10 years.