Three year anniversary of blogging

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Last year’s birthday cake

Tomorrow it’s been 3 years since I started this blog. Here’s the first post.

I actually started to blog more in 2014 after my mother died but I count from March 27, 2013. A lot has happened after that when it comes to blogging. I never thought I would still do it. There had been times I felt like quitting or at least not call myself a blogger.

One of the reasons I still do this is all of you out there in the blogging world. Not just you who follow me and read this but also blogging in general. Seeing others blogs and the support I get from time to time, has inspired me to continue. Even if no one did read, writing is good therapy. You don’t need thousands of followers to blog. It’s about the quality and not the quantity. I’ve always prefered a smaller crowd. It’s more intimate. I don’t blog to get fame, I write because that’s what makes me feel better. If someone can relate to me, then I’ve done something right.

There’s a lot of tips online how to improve your blog or how to gain followers. Those are useful tips. If you’re aiming for a career in blogging or investing in your business that is. For an ordinary blogger those are not that important. Maybe for some but not me. If I get at least one like or comment, it saves my day. Sometimes I do wish my posts would get more comments but the subjects I write about doesn’t create that much talk.

I started blogging to improve and practise my English. Maybe I’ve got the grammars wrong but no one has paid attention so I guess not. As long as people understand what I write about, that what matters. If I didn’t have this blog, I would still write my thoughts down. I used to have a diaries where I wrote personal things. But those are subjects I rather not write online about. I can write about what I’m interested in, my personality and issues I’m concerned about but that’s all.

So 3 years has gone by quite fast. I want to thank you all for your comments and likes. I hope you stick around. Maybe I’ve mentioned this before (I’m getting old 😉 ) but I’m thinking of changing the ‘About me’ page and make some small changes. I don’t know what yet but I’ll let you know when I do.

Here’s to the future 🍸 🍸

Envy in small doses

EnvyEnvy comes in different levels. There’s bad envy. Jealousy more like it. A person who does everything to destroy another person’s confidence. Those are the worst. Then there’s mild envy. You’re happy for them but at the same time you’re envious and wish you could have the same thing as they do. E.g. A new job, new love or special skills.

I mostly envy people who are confident talking to almost anyone without having to worry about what to say. They get friends easily and are quick-witted. When I meet new people I always think long and hard what to say before I open my mouth. This causes trouble. I could go for a week without saying anything to anyone but when I finally pick up the courage, it’s already too late. I think too much about what others think about me. It used to feel even worse when I was younger. It still feels unnatural when I talk to strangers. Don’t get me started on team work or presentations. That’s the worst thing I know.

I also envy those who are good with words. I don’t know any fancy words. Sometimes I can’t describe things. Even writing this blog is a pain. Especially since it’s in English. Not even in my native language. I use online translations and a dictionary a lot. In this post too. So many things are going on in my head so I can’t focus on one thing at once. I wish I could be as good as those who writes great blog posts. At least better than I am now.

I’ve thought about changing things on this blog. Maybe rewrite the About me page and change the subjects on this blog. I don’t really write much about things I like anymore. The whole concept of this blog is kind of boring to be honest. This is what I envy about other blog keepers. They know what kind of subjects they want to write about and they stick to it. Mine is all over the place. I don’t want to be like any other though. Recently I have focused on job search and the course I’m on. I still want this blog to be about things I like but it should focus on one or two things. Maybe help someone on the way. The problem is my interests are so wide and it’s difficult to choose. I wish I wasn’t so indecisive. I really envy those who know what they want.

Envy is one of the seven deadly sins but how deadly is it? Envy in small doses can be healthy. It motivates you to continue whatever you’re doing. As long as it doesn’t turn into jealousy. No one wants to be around a person like that who doesn’t have respect for others.