Crossing the bridge

The Railway Bridge, Riga, Latvia

There’s a saying “crossing the bridge when we get there” which means you handle a problem when you get there if there will be any. But I always think about what could go wrong before it happens. I think what if I do something wrong or say something wrong. Before I say anything to someone I think before I speak and sometimes I leave it at that. I never do anything spontaneous. I couldn’t organise an event for someone else. My plans usually goes wrong so I stopped planning. I live the day as they come. I couldn’t cross a line in any circumstances. I don’t like hurting people’s feelings so I hold my tongue with my thoughts. I feel guilty if I hurt someone I know. When I was angry at my parents I always regretted it later.

I try to do things even if I think of the worse. They usually end up alright and wonder why I was worried in the first place. Some things I do worry when I get there. For example when I apply to schools I just cross my fingers and hope for the best. I’ve been lucky to have got in to school’s I applied to. When you’re young it’s very important to get an education or you fall through the cracks. There’s a lot of youngsters who become outcasts because they don’t get that stability from a young age. If I hadn’t got anything after I left primary school, who knows where I would be now. I just wish I could get a job as easily as becoming a student. When I graduate from this education I’m on now this spring, I don’t know what I’ll do next. But I’m crossing the bridge when I get there. That’s the only time I do that. Other times I worry too much.

Sometimes I don’t even bother my mind with how things will go. Blogging is one of them. I don’t worry about what people might think of me. It’s easier to write about yourself and your thoughts through a blog. People still won’t get to know me completely. There are things I keep to myself. You might know what I’m about but no one won’t get to know me. That goes for anyone. You know who you are and that’s what important. On the internet you can’t tell everything about yourself. You should really worry what you put online because there’s a lot of people who tries to take advantage of you. “Crossing the bridge when you get there” doesn’t apply here. Once you put things online, it stays there and it’s too late to take it back. Every photo of yourself is out there for anyone to use. It’s worrying to see people posting selfies of themselves and photos of where they live. It can be a dangerous game. You think there’s no harm of showing yourself. You can always take it offline but it’s already out there. That’s one of the reasons why I don’t post photos of myself more than I have. No one knows where it will end up. I don’t want that much attention. Especially posting photos of your children can lead to anything bad. I don’t even want to think where those photos will end up. People are so careless and they should really think the worse first before posting anything online.

Like in an American police series ‘Hills street blues’ once said, “Let’s be careful out there”