The subject might sound uptempo but this post is not exactly that. That was just an idea I got when I saw the word sleeve in The Daily Prompt. Actually, I thought about men who have their sleeves rolled up to their elbows that I find sexy 😀 But seriously. I never seem to get anything done or it takes slowly. Especially the beginning. I’m a thinker and a dreamer. When I start to do them I either give up because they don’t go the way I want or I don’t start at all. I only think what I could do but then I’m too lazy or too scared. It’s not like I’ve never done anything in my life. I have studied. They could have been in vain since I don’t have a job. At least I got up to do something and not only sitting on my fanny. Unfortunately, I don’t get appreciated for my efforts in real life. I’m not exactly a dream candidate for the employers. They want someone who talks a lot and entertains them. I don’t fit anywhere. They can keep their companies for all I care. It won’t make me feel down if I’m not wanted. It’s really their loss.

If things would only be much easier for me but I’m both introverted and suffer from mild ADD (attention deficit disorder). But it’s so mild I don’t even know I have it. At least my attention span is short and I have concentrating issues. The biggest problem is probably not being driven enough. I don’t make any goals because I know I don’t have enough of courage to fulfil them. I’m scared of getting out of my comfort zone. I like trying something new but taking the first step is always difficult for me. I take chances with small steps. But take my time to decide what to do. I can’t just pull up my sleeve and get started. At least I take control of my own life and I educate myself to be better.

I’ll begin studying graphic design in August. I wrote it here but I mention it on this blog too. It will be nice to learn something new. Even if I do study  I can do something else too. We only meet twice a month. I still can’t believe I got in so I think it will soak in when it begins. I did think about it for a while if I should apply or not. I did once before but I got lucky the second time. Some people might think I’m mad for studying in such an expensive school. But is staying at home and waiting for a miracle a better choice? Not so much. I want to do something and not just be. I’m been doing that for too long. I will still think before acting. If you want things done right, you should do it at your own pace.