Month: July 2018

Trace my number but I won’t answer

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The worst thing for an introvert is answering the phone. This week I had at least 3 unknown numbers. You can trace my number but I won’t answer. If it’s something important, call again. Otherwise, I think it’s a telemarketer because that’s what it usually is. I don’t answer unknown numbers and that is final. There is no point telling me I get used to answering the phone because I won’t. I refuse to do so. I prefer email or some other way. Then I know what it is about. I also don’t like calling strangers. It gives me anxiety and I hate that feeling. Email applies in this situation too. Email (or social media) first and then maybe call. Even then if it’s really necessary.

People don’t seem to understand how an introvert works. It’s so easy to tell someone else how to be. Answering unknown numbers are a waste of our time. I do anything so I don’t have to answer or call someone unless it’s someone I know or expecting a call from. It’s like talking to a person face to face and when you say something, you later regret it or you forget to say what you thought. Writing is easier because there you have time to think. That’s why this new technology is great for an introvert. You can get in touch with people on social media. In the past, you had to call people if you wanted something done. These days you can just do things online.

When I went to the entrepreneurship course, they said finding clients to your business, you need to do cold calling. You know, calling possible clients. No way, think again, I thought. I won’t do that no matter what. There are other ways. Not only calling possible clients but also calling employers to ask if they have any jobs, is a pain. Luckily a lot of business owners prefer you get in touch with them via email. Who actually have time to answer a phone? They wouldn’t get anything done. Unless they have a secretary. Calling on the phone is so overrated. This is the 2000’s and there are a lot of other opportunities to get in touch with people. It’s different if it’s a friend or a family member but when it comes to total strangers, a phone shouldn’t be the only option. Even a text message is better than a phone call. So just trace my number but I won’t answer.

Resurrect my feelings

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Resurrect my feelings

I thought I would be over you by now

But then you come back and resurrect my feelings

It’s more than a crush, it’s a feeling I can’t get rid of

I try to look at someone else the way I see you

But when you’re there you resurrect my feelings

What makes this the worse is the truth you don’t know me

I don’t even know if you’re alone or if there is someone

Nothing will change, we never meet in this life

No one will ever make me feel the way you do

You resurrect my feelings over and over again

Don’t stand so close to me

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I hate crowded places and there’s usually on events and such. But I also hate it when people stand too close in a queue in the store. I try to avoid serried places as much as I can. Then there are these slow walking people. They don’t have to be old people. Any age can walk slowly. It’s not that I’m in a hurry but it frustrates me to walk behind such person. I feel like Mr Bean in this sketch. Public transport is the worst though.

If it’s a train and the place is crowded, there’s nowhere to sit. People stand really close to you. It feels like you can’t breathe and you want to get out. I went once on to a train which was full of people. Then I realised I was on the wrong train. Luckily the right one was right behind. It was such a relief to get out of there. The real train had fewer people in it. It was in the morning and that train was never full. When you’re in narrow places, it feels like you’re being suffocated. On a bus, it’s the same.

Last year when I studied in another town, I had to take the bus on a Sunday. People kept coming in and no one left. You sit there with all your things and then someone wants to sit beside you. Just when you’re settled down, you have to move them. If you sit by the window it feels like the other person is pushing you into the window. On long trips, this is not a very nice way to travel. They say you should use public transport more often but they probably haven’t travelled in that when it’s crowded. A few times during my trip to the other city, I thought I wish I had a driver’s licence so I could drive to my destination instead. But then on public transport, you can sleep or do other stuff. They’re not always crowded. It really depends on when you travel. In August I’m going by bus to Helsinki to study graphic design so I have to experience serried places again. Luckily it’s just couple times a month.

If you go on events they’re usually in a bigger place. Last year when I went to see Robbie Williams in concert, there was a lot of people but yet there were places you could go to. People weren’t coming at you like they do in public transport. I get anxiety if someone gets too close. Even if someone looks over my shoulder when I’m on my computer, it feels awkward. I lose concentration and stop what I’m doing. It’s different if it’s a teacher who wants to help me but other times it’s not comfortable.